I turn 50 next month, I wish I could say I don’t feel it, but that would be a lie. I guess it is natural to take our health for granted when we are not sick or limited in some way. I just spent 5 days in the hospital while they determined what and where an infection in my blood and urine was coming from… finally they got positives on a Lyme test. Let me just state for the record that the antibiotics they have me on are leaving me feeling far worse than anything the Lyme disease was doing to me. As an added bonus the antibiotic has caused the Crohn’s Disease to flare up. I don’t even want to get into the Kidney stones they found.
I don’t say this looking for empathy or pity, I just have a much greater awareness of how much I used to take my health for granted and , perhaps because I am getting older, I find the battle to try to find health at times confusing and exhausting. I realize that I am not alone in this and that many, many others have this battle and are far more involved in their own struggles than I am in my own.
Another topic related to health in general is where to draw the line regarding intervention. This is a big subject and one that will have different answers for every person. I wonder where, and to some degree when, do you say that’s far enough Dr. it is time to let go and Let God… so to speak. Medical technology has come so far and with each new breakthrough or assistive device or Pharmacological discovery we step further and further into an unknown abyss. Where is the blessing of knowledge and discovery crossing over into I can do all things because of our incredible abilities that was before, untapped?
What if you come to a place where you decide, God if you want me here longer it will be by your hand, or is even saying that throwing it back in His face because He bestowed the knowledge to make you better and you chose not to accept it… or your definition of “better” doesn’t jive with the medical communities. What about spouses or family members how do their wishes impact your own decisions and should they?
I am really just getting started here and realizing that I don’t feel like going into the whole thing just now.
Food for Thought,