[aw-suhm] Show IPA
3. Slang. very impressive: That new white convertible is totally awesome
This is one of those words that I struggle with. I have heard it said that once upon a time this word was reserved exclusively to describe God, I know that our language is in a constant state of metamorphosis, changing both in use and intent, (not to mention the propensity for turning everything into an acronym).
I am reading a book right now by Jon Acuff entitled “Start”, this author’s ideas about taking your life from average to Awesome. Reading this is like an exercise in defining the difference between a rock and hard place for me, and this is why:
1) I am morally torn regarding the idea of me being “Awesome”, particularly regarding my aforementioned point of reference for which the meaning of awesome is. After all, if God is Awesome , me trying to claim Awesome as a descriptor of who I am approaches blasphemy.
2) Putting that problem aside, the idea that I can describe myself or promote my self as awesome, creates this whole conundrum between being , meek, humble and content in all things, while at the same time being awesome.
I realize that this author is taking license here, probably, to say be the best you can be. The book has a lot of great analogies inspiring the reader to find and work on the things in your life where your joy and passion are being utilized. He also has a very practical emphasis in prioritizing the areas of awesome. An example he gives is, if writing is where your “Awesome” is, while at the same time realizing you want to be the best parent, spouse, employee etc. Then don’t steal the time from your wife to work on your awesome writing, while she is trying to cook dinner with the children under foot and you haven’t shared two words since yesterday.
On a somewhat deeper level I struggle with the fact that I want to be awesome, really, at a base level I want to be an amazing Christian, a devoted husband, the envy of the neighborhood father, a star employee and a world-renowned writer, to name a few. The problem is I think maybe it’s wrong for me to want that, not that being those things in and of themselves is bad, more to the point, me, wanting those things is, when I am honest with myself based on a deep-seated desire to be recognized, applauded, rewarded… yes it’s all about me!
If I could do and be all those things with a right heart and a properly adjusted attitude that was born solely of a desire to honor God and an exclusive desire to point others at His Awesomeness…. Frankly the opposing positions are so far apart I can not imagine finding a solution.
So… there’s the conundrum! Life goes on and as I ponder these things I have to wonder… while spending my life looking for the answer, am I destined to a life of mediocrity?