Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t been posting as much lately… most have probably breathed a sigh of relief. My family and I have begun to explore some new directions and this has begun to take up a considerable amount of my time.
The past few years I have been employed in the human services field. This has been a time of great challenges as well as a time of seeking some direction. Prior to working in this field we were living in Romania and working with friends of ours with a new church plant in a small town called Moreni. When we went there we were planning on doing this work for years, instead we were back in the states after barely a year. Sometimes we make plans… and sometimes they even work, but all times I am thinking it is better that we are open to a change in plans. Finding ourselves back in the USA with no job little money and a baby on the way left me crying out to my God and scrambling looking for something to hold on too. I wasn’t afraid for our daily needs but this was the beginning of a time in wondering what path into the future should we consider.
Here we are a little over 5 years later and still I have no real clear sense of a direction and to be honest I am beginning to believe that perhaps this is where we are supposed to be. Maybe it is here in this place where I don’t have to have a plan… that we can rest in the faith that God has a plan for us already. I started to think about who I am, this conglomeration of molecules creating matter that houses a soul and a mind and a spirit. I started considering what is it that we were created to do…. we are created to do that which we do, but what we do isn’t that big a deal. The how and the why we do is the big deal.
I have an entrepreneurial mindset. I have had this for as long as I can remember, even at 10 years of age I was selling greeting cards and had a paper route. I went through a period of time struggling and asking myself if I wanted to be a business owner simply for what it might do for me and not how God could use me. I have had several businesses over the years and sold them all. Now I realize that I have been running away from what I was afraid of. “to whom much is given, much is required” I have been given a lot, unfortunately I have been burying it in the ground.
Fear, takes many forms and it drives us to places we should not go, but fear is the opposite of faith, and so what I need is more faith.
I would like to ask you to join with me in whatever way you may feel comfortable and ask My God to give me more faith. I also will ask him for whatever it is you share with me that you may need. I know this post is disjointed and in places nonsensical that’s OK Humor me and Thank You in advance for your help.