Forgiveness.. it seems we struggle with letting go when others have committed a wrong against us, well it seems I have trouble letting go when someone continually does me some dis-service. I usually will feign outwardly to have let it go but inside I find some of my thoughts and motivations hindered by these multiple offenses.
I realize this actually is more my problem than others and when I think of situations when others have refused to forgive me it has made me realize that their suffering is greater than my own.
I know God forgives when I confess and turn from my wretched ways, (repentance) and I seem to be able to forgive myself…at least most of the time. This un-forgiveness that I may hold on to is truly an area where I need some help. I sense I want to forgive but I come up against the wall because my pride and desire to protect myself from further hurt gets in the way.
Do you have any situations in your life that helps you to relate to this scenario? Letting go is what I not only have to do, I need to do it as well, if I don’t I will remain trapped in a prison of my own making and if I refuse to forgive others than God will not forgive me. This is not from a God who is vengeful, but is from my God who loves me and understands far better than me that if I don’t forgive, I can not be truly free.
How about you…are you free?