How do you know when your addicted?My family has made it known to me that I have a problem, actually most people I know have begun to hint in subtle ways that perhaps I may need some professional intervention. I really don’t see the problem, perhaps the glare from my laptop has caused a deficiency in my peripheral vision. I was certain the hand signals and gestures were intended for someone else.
In the darkened room the iridescent glow from the computer screen casts a blue-grey hue on the walls gently fading to blackness, the house is still, apart from the vibrations of the refrigerator compressor, the gentle hum of the cooling fan attempting to disperse the heat created by the cpu(central processing unit) and the irregular clacking of the keys of the keyboard first furiously then halting and returning to a rhythm us if some imaginary deadline had to be met. A woman’s voice calls from somewhere, out beyond the focus, at first unable to penetrate the synapses of brain wave activity. Again the voice and it’s repetitiveness, now beginning to break through the force field, finally louder and more insistent it passes through and intercepts my consciousness. “Are you coming to bed sometime tonight, she asks?” “Yes I respond impatiently”, slightly annoyed at the interruption of the voluminous thoughts coursing through me to the digital page. “See, You are Addicted” she mumbles as she turns to climb the stairs.
Addicted ! Ha, I can stop anytime I want to…I just don’t want to right now. “I have to finish this post” I speak out pensively, Guilt trying desperately to find footing on the slippery slopes of justification, fails and slides off as I reason that this is my creative outlet. Hopeful that comments from my subscribers and readers by association, will validate that I have something worth offering Something that may somehow bring humor or a different point of view! Even perhaps on occasion some worth while wisdom that enlightens a desperately seeking soul.
Surely I do not have a problem, these callused fingertips are, I’m sure normal from all the hard work I have been doing driving around all day, and the eye strain, look I’m getting older and that is a completely natural part of getting older. Granted the thirteen e-mails I haven’t responded to are valid needs and I will return them …soon.
Yes I know I should have my hearing checked because obviously there must be excessive wax build-up, it is the only logical conclusion to not hearing anyone speaking to me until at least the third attempt!(not sure why it’s only while I’m on the computer) People who are addicted are so easy to pick out! They are the ones who are always on the computer, so see I am not always on the computer, I have a life and responsibilities, yes I do spend some time on there but just yesterday …remember I came out and had supper with you, is it my fault it only takes six minutes to eat! We spent the evening watching TV together, remember? Well yes I did have the computer in my lap but hey there are so many commercials and I just figured you know why waste that time staring at products I’m not going to buy anyway, besides that program provided some new inspiration for a great topic idea! Me, addicted, no no, you must be thinking of someone else!